Abundance, heart, and why NCIS will premiere in my den tonight

I wanted to have my theme words set for ’09 prior to ’09 actually arriving, but that didn’t happen. But I did get ‘em solidified by Day 2 of ’09, so that’s still doing just fine, I think.

Theme Words for 2009…(drumroll, please!)

They are Abundance + Heart.

I want to focus on seeing, finding, and sharing abundance in all facets of my world. And I am going to very consciously tune in to my Heart Center, and allow myself the time and space to speak from it, relate from it, own what I find within it, and respond to people and situations with it as my compass.

I’ve seen magic occurring since I’ve started doing that. Not always magic that immediately comes in the form of comfort or “easiness,” but magic all the same. And I want to make more of that magic. Seek it, create it, and share it like crazy. (And we’re back to abundance!!)

The Runners-Up

I’d played around with Growth, Expansion, and similar words, but I realized that my urge to use words like that came from a place of scarcity–I must grow my business or else I won’t have enough money / find enough clients / etc. So I decided to choose Abundance, and explore the ways in which trusting in the plentifulness and leading with the heart center would offer up the business goals I seek when I think of “Growth” but without tying it to my longer-held notions of growth vs. lacking.

I’m flippin’ the script, as the youngin’s say.

Mini resolutions / intentions for me in ’09

1. Continue using my semi-made up words freely, as people seem to enjoy them, “get” them, and don’t at all judge me for them the way I used to imagine they would. Plus, semi-made-up words bring me disproportionate amounts of joy, and embodies a lot of the “Be Marissa” and “Playfulness” traits I’m intending to honor as well. Examples: epiphanettes, googly-eyed-fangurlism, technogremlins, Can-Do-Ology.
2. Allow the TV to take a conscious place in my life, and allow myself conscious enjoyment of it.

   

   Photo McGee & Abbs of NCIS (c) CBS

   I’m moving it (today, actually) from my main living room into the room currently labeled “Den.” And one of my favorite old desks from “Den” will come out to take the TV’s place, along with my iTower so I can fill my living space with music, rather than constant television. Constant tv actually overstimulates me. Makes it hard for me to go to sleep at bedtime. Makes me feel restless. Makes me actually feel more isolated, in an odd way. I will allow myself to watch the shows I truly loooove and look forward to (Psych! CSI! NCIS! House!), but I’ll have to intentionally go to the other room to do so, and I won’t be tempted to be computering / dishwashering / etc. at the same time. This leads to…

3. Focused multi-tasking. I’m not going to fool myself into believing that I’ll be unitasking anytime soon. (Blasphemy! See also: Nigh impossible!) But I’m going to be aware of the multi’s that I task, rather than using them by default. E.g., the TV is here, so I’ll have it on while I work, even though it makes me restless, overstimulated, and I actually miss a lot of the great programs I want to see. Instead, I’ll have music on while I work, or the blinds open to the common area out back while I work, or enjoy a steaming hot cup of cocoa while I watch the newest NCIS, or comb Rosco’s perpetually shedding but super soft coat while I catch up on Frasier reruns.
4. Grok the clocks. I resonate strongly with the idea of natural time, or slow time, or internal time, etc. And I fight that, because I’m “supposed to” have a schedule. I’m “supposed to” do things at certain times. Ah, the “supposed to” nonsense. The reality is that I internally have ebbs and flows and peaks and valleys and huger times and wakeful times and totally unproductive times, and they don’t really give a whip about what the numbers on a clock have to say about it. So instead of trying so hard to force Me into conforming with The Clocks, I’m allowing myself space to let The Clocks be a part of Me. With reminders in place for appointments and meetings and such, of course, because I want to be accepting and natural, not late and disrespectful. LOL
   

   (Relate to this? Check out School of the Seasons by the amazingly insightful Waverly Fitzgerald, and consider buying her book Slow Time–which is awesome.)

5. Grazie Mornings. Begin each day by sitting up and immediately saying the first 5 things that come to my mind for which I’m thankful for… before even setting foot on the floor or removing the covers. Make gratitude the absolute first conscious act of my day, every day, for a year. Doesn’t that sound like magic in the making all by itself?

What are your intentions, hopes, goals, wishes, or thoughts for 2009?